Life Transitions
by Paul Dean
I hope you are enjoying browsing my web pages. I trust your intuition is guiding you.
Before I tell you a little about me and my background, I would like to clarify something I consider to be of relevance. With the practise of certain techniques, everyone can develop and strengthen their own intuitive abilities, but true psychics are born, not made. I am naturally the real deal. Although, I am glad to be psychic, it hasn't been particularly easy, especially when you can clearly see beneath surface appearances. However, they do say, "the strongest trees are made from bearing the fiercest winds".
I knew I had 'The Sight' at an early age. My earliest memories started at the age of three. I can still remember being visited by spirit, they would come to me as beings of light and colour. I would hear them too, giving words of comfort and encouragement. On occasions, I was visited by darker spirits and trapped souls. Quite honestly, as a child, they frightened me frozen, because I would psychically see their faces in the dark, even with my eyes closed. I can also remember journeys out of my body, which I later discovered was called 'astral travel'. I learned at an early age that people just didn't understand me or my experiences. I was an extremely sensitive and empathic child, very aware of other people's energies or vibes. I often felt overwhelmed by the intensity of other peoples feelings. I always knew when people were lying to me. I rarely spoke at all, except to expose people's lies. As I grew older, I didn't gain popularity for uncovering family secrets. There were more skeletons than closets. I discovered that people didn't appreciate my fondness for truth or my knowing certain things, so the less I said, the better things would be. Although I was often referred to as a 'wise old soul', I was sometimes called a 'know it all' when I revealed my insights to negative personalities. I didn't then understand that some people are threatened by what they cannot comprehend. It is a sad fact that some people will attack what they fear. This certainly occurred all too frequently, both verbally and physically. They say the ones closest hurt the most, this was sadly most true, especially in my family. I was bullied a lot at home, and at school for being 'different'. Also, I struggled a lot with my sexuality, kind of hoping that my feelings would change given time and I would become 'normal' and finally accepted. I learned to hide within myself, my thoughts, my feelings and my gifts, from any kind of attack. (I later learned to defend myself both physically and psychically, much to all of my adversaries surprise! I was a victim no longer!)
Things started to change when I was fifteen, I was given a pack of tarot cards by a friend's mother. At last I had something positive to work with. I read a stack of books on the tarot which gave me only a little understanding really. The meanings were so different from one book to another. This caused a lot of confusion. A gentle but firm voice from somewhere deep within was telling me to go with what comes to me and forget the books. Once it was known I had tarot, people started to ask me for readings. I was very nervous and excited too, as I started reading the powerful and mystical cards. I soon realized that I was not really reading the cards as such, but the person. But people would feel more comfortable if the information was coming from the cards, so I continued giving tarot readings as they seemed more acceptable and perhaps a little less intimidating than psychic readings, somehow. People started recommending me to others and bringing gifts. After about a year I decided to ask for money instead. The old saying 'fair exchange is no robbery' being right. I left my family home at the earliest opportunity and juggled two jobs for a while. I attended the Spiritualist church and sat in closed circle, to practice my mediumship abilities on Mediums. I went to meditation and healing groups. I learned about astrology, colour therapy, essential oils, herbs, roots, resins and incenses, nutrition, psychology, dreams, magick and witchcraft. In fact, I studied anything which would help me to help others.
In my early twenties I came out to myself as gay and felt a huge relief. I learned that gay stands for Good As You! I dumped the shame that bound me for so long and finally accepted myself as 'normal'. Then I started to love and approve of myself and my life. Soon after, I 'came out' to my nearest and dearest as 'a man loving man'. I have seen that in many lifetimes I have been male and female, homosexual and heterosexual. Sometimes, society has approved of my sexuality and sometimes it has not. I understood that a persons spirit or soul has no sexuality, just experiences to learn and grow through. I share this with you dear reader, as you may be struggling with your sexuality or you may know someone who is. If so please remember, The Universe in its infinite wisdom created you the way you are. So, be true to yourself and you will be on the right path to finding lasting happiness and fulfilling your true destiny. Anyway, I digress too much, now back to the main story...
I put my tarot away for a few years and focused on purely psychic readings. I went out into the world with my gift and my learning and started not only to do individual readings, but investigations too. I helped to find missing relatives, jewellery and animals. Retraced family trees. Helped business men and women. Uncovered phobias from past lives. Discovered causes of illnesses. Made links with relatives in spirit and spirit guides. I did public talks and demonstrations of clairvoyance and mediumship in front of various audiences. I taught techniques to open other people's psychic gifts. I held development groups and support groups for therapists. I painted peoples auras and did spiritual healing. I rebirthed individuals and groups. For all of which, I received huge success, positive feedback and immense joy.
I featured on the TV news for psychically investigating a plane crash. In brief, this is what happened...
I received a call asking me to visit Lancing College in West Sussex, a courtyard of beautiful old buildings with gothic arches and a towering chapel, surrounded by the South Downs. When I arrived I was made to feel very welcome. I was given a tour of the grounds and of the chapel, which was illuminated for me, as haunting organ music was played. I was taken to a tiny sparse stony chapel, which lay beneath the grandeur of the gilded chapel above. It was here that I felt spirits of yesteryear the most. Outside, in the college grounds I was given a piece of metal that was about the size of a ten pence coin. I walked away from the sceptical onlookers and into a field. I kept walking until Spirit told me to stop and sit down. I sat in the middle of a field, feeling a bit of a Wally, when Spirit told me to close my eyes and that they were taking me on a journey. After a rush of air entered my lungs, I found myself in the cabin of a bomber plane with four other people whom I saw in military uniform. I heard a terribly loud humming of engine noise that didn't seem right to me, it was getting louder to the point of being deafening. I psychically asked my Guides what the problem with the plane was. I was the shown a cable running from the front to the back of the plane that was stuck. I felt an incredible state of fear which I was picking up from the plane's occupants as it started to point down, heading for the ground below. No matter what the pilot tried to do, nothing could change the fate of the aircraft. Fear intensified as the plane crashed in to a field. I saw three of the four men dead and bloody. The fourth was still alive. Spirit told me the survivor was now dead. He had died within a year of the crash and they told me 'Holland'. By this time the fourth man had joined me in spirit. He was very interested in what I was doing. I returned, a little weary, to the sceptics from the college who had invited me and relayed my findings to them. When I returned home, I had a guest with me, a spirit wearing a bomber jacket. I was very weak, tired and generally run down for two weeks. Part of me had died with the others that day, and yet I was a survivor of a plane crash too. I was unprepared for the emotional shock and upset. Spirit had taken me on a journey. I could not call it pleasant although, it was enlightening.
Some weeks later, I received a call from Meridian News requesting an interview with me, which after some thought, I accepted. I was then told that the exact place I sat down in a huge field, was the very place that the piece of metal from a bomber plane was found after it had crashed there, many years before. Researchers had discovered that there had been four people onboard. Three had died on impact and the forth had died ten months later, shot down over Holland. A local man had witnessed the deafening sound of the engine as the plane had crashed. The trapped cable, I was told by an expert had made the engine race and steered it to the ground. I had a TV camera in my face and was interviewed that day. I soon realized that I didn't want fame as the news was broadcast four times the next day. People contacted me about all sorts of crazy things, from finding lost souls to buried treasure. I decided this was certainly not for me and returned to helping people in my 'normal' way. As for the fourth man who was in spirit wearing his bomber jacket, after a few weeks he finally said, 'farewell' and returned to The Spirit World. He had wanted to make sure that I was ok and, as soon as I was, he left. To this day, I still think of him from time to time. Bless him dearly.
Many years later, I am still doing much of the work that I enjoy, either in person, over the phone or by post. My aim is to help genuine souls gain a deeper understanding of themselves and their lives, offer support and healing, and to help them choose and attain the right path for their own highest good. Oh yes, and to have a good laugh along the way is always great too. I must say, I am a bit of a wizard at helping others!
With the use of my spiritual gifts and esoteric knowledge, I am currently in the process of writing and recording a series of meditations, audio books and a DVD or two, for those who wish to expand their own knowledge and awareness of psychic and spiritual matters. I am delighted to say that some audio CDs can already be found in my little magick shop, along with some other exciting magickal wares that have helped me and others on their life-paths, and more will be added gradually, all in good time.
Well, that's about of much of me as I am willing to share with you, within these pages and at this time! So, the rest will have to remain a mystery, for now...
Blessings to you...
Paul Dean